Back from Nirvana

Hi everyone (^0^)/

As the title
suggests: I’m back online^^

And before I hit you
with long-winded reasons and stories I want to first say that I’m
sorry. Sorry for just vanishing, not keeping in contact with my
friends here and on other online sites and not even leaving a quick
post to show that I’m still alive. I felt incredibly guilty for
this and not responding to messages and soon enough didn’t log into
my websites anymore at all, even though I missed my friends.

More information under the cut.

So what did I do
while being offline for the last… 1 ½ years?
Not much really.
I had planned to sort out my life since, as many of you know, I
suffer from a bipolar disorder, social anxiety and other smaller
health issues. However isolating myself did not help me improve and
instead made things worse, as one actually could have guessed.
Instead of having more time to learn and draw I ended up with bad
episodes, not communicating much at all for months and at the same
time convincing myself that everything will improve if I just try a
little harder.

Finally, a few weeks
ago, I had a moment of epiphany. I can’t and don’t want to keep
living like this, I have to change something. So now I’m on a new
medication, am going back to therapy and most importantly want to
reconnect with my friends and acquaintances online and offline!

It still took me
quite a bit of time and courage to write all this down, especially
since I don’t want to make it sound like I’m trying to gain
sympathy or pity or even use this story for attention.

I just want to tell
those who care the truth in as few as possible paragraphs. To have
this out of the way, for them and for me.

For a fresh start I turned this to a personal blog and made a blog exclusively for my art, though I will still reblog my pictures here too.
I’ll introduce my new blogs in a separate post but if you already wanna know or follow it, it’s named artist-yutaki

Yes… I think that
is it. I will write some personal messages to try and start talking
and communicating again with everyone I missed (and actually feel
confident enough writing an unprompted message) ❤ If I don’t
write you always feel free to strike up a convo! I either forgot
because I’m very scatter brained on my new meds or chances are even
higher that I was too shy, haha^^”

Every message means
the world to me, but if you don’t feel like writing or even
answering that is totally fine too of course, after all I’ve been
gone for so long!

I’ll start writing
messages and answers tomorrow, this post sadly already took all my
energy and courage to make and post plus it’s already late.

So see you tomorrow!

Love you all! ♡

modmad:

waffleguppies:

shabnakh-adyr:

debulover2:

shabnakh-adyr:

We Happy Few

A game of paranoia and survival, in a drugged-out, dystopian English city in 1964. From the studio that brought you Contrast.

It’s a first-person game, set in a procedurally generated, fully 3D city that you must escape before society collapses around you. But, like any good roguelike, you’re probably going to die a few times before you figure out how it all works.

You will need to learn how to conform and avoid suspicion. You will need to hunt for supplies, and craft the devices and weapons that enable you to make it out of town alive. What do the Wellies approve of you doing? What makes them suspicious? What turns them into a homicidal mob? And is there anyone here who can help you?

Welcome, my friends. It’s another fabulous day in Wellington Wells.

Support the game on Kickstarter!

Wait, isn’t this just another Bioshock? Like practically another clone of Bioshock?

No. This is a rougelike, survival, “stealth in plain sight” game and you don’t get magic powers from taking the drugs, you can overdose and lose your memory– which results in the game generating a completely new map for you. It’s more along the lines of Don’t Starve if anything. Except if Don’t Starve took place in a city where you were trying very hard to blend in with the locals or they’d kill you.

THEY’RE SO CLOSE WITH 9 DAYS LEFT GUYS. THIS GAME LOOKS SO GOOD

YO GUYS HELP THIS MESSED UP GAME BECOME A REALITY

This Game looks absolutely awesome and I’ve already donated! PLEASE if you have just a bit spare money consider donating!

the-philosophers-bone:

acabosetotal:

harukami:

gothiccharmschool:

seananmcguire:

kanayahavethisdance:

Fuck I’m at a fencing tournament and literally a minute after I reblogged this my dad told me that he talked to the point people and I’m probably going to win a medal.

BURN BAGEL BURN

OH WHY NOT?

I need to follow up to say I reblogged this last night, and this morning I got some of the best news of my life, like, a life dream come true news thing.

Bagel what are your powers

FUCK, I though it was just another lucky meme but LISTEN. Since a week ago I was waiting a phone call to confirm me if I got a job or not in my university. I reblogged this yesterday’s night “just for fun and because I don’t want any bagel to be mad with me”, and today’s afternoon, while I was losing my time as always, the professor I was supposed to work with called me and asked me for my personal information to start working with her.

THE BAGEL POWERS ARE WAY TOO MUCH FOR THIS WORLD

I GOT A JOB THE DAY AFTER MY QUEUE POSTED THIS THE FIRST TIME AND I JUST REALIZED IT WHEN I SAW IT AGAIN HOLY GOD

(Sorry this will be German since it is about a German Convention)

Ich bin etwas versteckt, deswegen habe ich hier einen Plan, wo ihr meinen Tisch finden könnt!
Ich hoffe ihr besucht mich trotzdem~ QwQ

degari:

yutaki

I bought you a cinnamon bun but during the 3rd lost period I got hungry, lost hope and ate it.

It’s okay. I know there was no other way to survive!

oceantann:

Hey, would anyone be down w doing an art swap w me? ^ u^

Like, sending each other a lil package of little sketches/stickers/your card/fun things you have made! (?)

If you’re interested please reblog this w your art/shop link!

Ohhh my Gosh, I would love to! ^0^
Here is everything listed that I sell
Also I sell pretty much everything in my gallery as a photoprint uwu
I can of course understand if that’s not the style you seek but if you feel up to it I think it’d be a lot of fun to swap >w<

goulbournes:

spiritthatdenies:

uyld:

After last year’s amazing success, and the fact that the post has exploded again yesterday, UYLD is officially coming back on for 2015.

Yes we are all aware that this year’s May 7th is on Thursday, the post you’re reblogging is from 2014.

A few basic rules:

If your language is something other than English, on May 7th you can speak that language all day!

If you have multiple languages you can pick from the choice is yours friend, speak all, speak one, whatever’s best for you

You’ll blog in your language all day: text posts, replies, tags (except triggers and organizational tags), the whole nine yards. Regardless of what language people choose to speak to you, you answer in your own.

Midnight to midnight according to your own time zone

English native speakers, if you wanna participate you can practice a second language you’re learning

Be kind and respectful! Read the UYLD FAQ for more info.

The tag is gonna be #Use You Language Day if you wanna tag your posts with that!

Non-verbal, non-written languages (like ASl, dialects, otherwise non-written languages) are more than welcome, read the FAQ for some suggestions on how to participate.

If you have concerns/suggestions regarding accessibility or inclusion of any kind, please send this blog an ask.

IF YOU HAVE ANY MORE QUESTIONS READ THE FAQ FIRST.

All in all I am not going to come police your participation, as long as you’re respectful of other people’s culture you can do what you want.

Please tag all your posts “use your language day” or “uyld” or some variation thereof, so that if people need to blacklist for accessibility reasons they can do so. This is about having fun, not distressing other people.

Hey, reminder that this will happen tomorrow on this blog. I’m fine to talk to though, I’ll just answer everything in not-English (most likely german unless you wanna make me go and take that japanese/latin for a spin 🙂 ), so be ready to use gooletranslate for a day.

Aww, yiss, let’s do Latin tomorrow!

I’m kidding, sorry 😀 I’ll be doing German!

Yay, there we go! ^0^ Tomorrow I’ll only blog in German >w< Let’s talk a bit if you have time uwu

(Sorry, this will be German since it’s about my attendance at a German Convention)

Hallo meine Lieben! (^0^)/
Ich werde diesen Monat am Samstag den 23.05.2015 und Sonntag dem 24.05.2015 auf der Dokomi einen Stand als Künstlerin haben!
Die Dokomi findet in Düsseldorf in dem Congress Center statt und geht von 10:00 bis 20:00, bzw. 18 Uhr. Ich werde die ganze Zeit über da sein (>w<)
Ich freue mich schon total, besonders auch wegen den vielen tollen Zeichnern, die auf der großen Künstlermeile zu finden sein werden ^0^ Mein Stand hat die Nummer Z155 und wird mit Hilfe der Karte des Conbuchs einfach zu finden sein^^
Hier findet ihr alle Infos: www.dokomi.de
Falls ihr kommt, dann würde ich mich natürlich freuen, wenn ihr mich besucht ^0^

Das hier die Infos was ich alles anbieten werde

Stream [ONLINE]

STREAM

I’ll stream publicly for the first time ~~in about 2 hours~~, at 10 AM EDT / 16:00 CEST (^0^)
I will draw my Far Cry 4 Fanart for the Ubisoft E3 Contest, Sketching out all the Details. Since I have a Deadline I’ll stream for quite a long time, only taking small breaks, so feel free to drop by whenever (uwu)
Music will be on.
Mic will be off (probably).
I will answer questions.
I am a bit nervous but I hope a few people will drop by! See you then! (QwQ)/

RULES
– Please be friendly! If you seek a fight you will be banned, sorry.
– You may post Links but always write where and to what they lead. If it’s NSFW then please say so!
– Talk about anything you want, as long as it doesn’t provoke a fight, or it’s offensive and I ask you to drop the subject.
– Chat will be in English & German.
– If someone makes Languages Mistakes do not make fun of them! Not everyone’s Native Language is English or German.
– No Advertising.
– Sharing your Art Sites & Pictures is allowed, but don’t spam them.
– I will review your Art or give tips if asked to.
– Feel free to ask Questions!

FAQ
– If I don’t answer you, I’m not ignoring you, I probably just didn’t see it. Just Cap your Question and ask again.
– I’m working with a Cintiq 12WX and Paint Tool SAI
– I don’t use particular brushes or textures and can’t link them to you.

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Ich werde in etwa 2 Stunden das erste mal öffentlich streamen, um 10AM EDT / 16:00 CEST (^0^)
Bild wird mein Far Cry 4 Fanart für den Ubisoft E3 Contest sein, die Details werden skizziert, geoutlinet und gecolort. Da ich eine Deadline habe werde ich wohl eine ganze weile streamen mit nur kleinen Pausen, also guck ruhig jederzeit vorbei (uwu)
Musik wird an sein.
Mikrophon wird (vermutlich) aus sein.
Ich werde Fragen beantworten.
Ich bin etwas nervös, aber ich hoffe ein paar Leute schauen vorbei! Bis dann! (QwQ)/

REGELN
– Seid bitte freundlich! Falls ihr Streit sucht werde ich euch bannen, sorry.
– Links zu posten ist erlaubt, aber schreibt immer dazu wohin und zu was sie führen. Falls es NSFW ist sagt das!
– Redet über alles was ihr wollt, solange es keinen Streit provoziert, es anstößig ist, oder ich euch bitte das Thema sein zu lassen.
– Der Chat wird in Deutsch & Englisch sein.
– Falls jemand sprachliche Fehler macht, macht euch nicht über ihn/sie lustig! Nicht jeder hat Englisch, oder Deutsch als Muttersprache.
– Keine Werbung.
– Teilt eure Künstlerseiten & Bilder gerne, aber spamt diese nicht.
– Wenn ihr wollt werde ich eure Bilder reviewen und Tips geben.
– Stellt ruhig Fragen wenn ihr wollt!

FAQ
– Falls ich euch nicht antworte, dann mache ich das nicht, weil ich euch ignoriere, vermutlich habe ich es einfach nicht gesehen. Schreibt eure Frage einfach nochmal in Großschrift.
– Ich arbeite mit einem Cintiq 12WX und Paint Tool SAI.
– Ich benutze keine bestimmten Brushes oder Texturen und kann sie deswegen auch nicht verlinken.

Stream in about 2 Hours

STREAM

I’ll stream publicly for the first time in about 2 hours, at 10 AM EDT / 16:00 CEST (^0^)
I will draw my Far Cry 4 Fanart for the Ubisoft E3 Contest, Sketching out all the Details. Since I have a Deadline I’ll stream for quite a long time, only taking small breaks, so feel free to drop by whenever (uwu)
Music will be on.
Mic will be off (probably).
I will answer questions.
I am a bit nervous but I hope a few people will drop by! See you then! (QwQ)/

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