Hi everyone (^0^)/
As the title
suggests: I’m back online^^
And before I hit you
with long-winded reasons and stories I want to first say that I’m
sorry. Sorry for just vanishing, not keeping in contact with my
friends here and on other online sites and not even leaving a quick
post to show that I’m still alive. I felt incredibly guilty for
this and not responding to messages and soon enough didn’t log into
my websites anymore at all, even though I missed my friends.
More information under the cut.
So what did I do
while being offline for the last… 1 ½ years?
Not much really.
I had planned to sort out my life since, as many of you know, I
suffer from a bipolar disorder, social anxiety and other smaller
health issues. However isolating myself did not help me improve and
instead made things worse, as one actually could have guessed.
Instead of having more time to learn and draw I ended up with bad
episodes, not communicating much at all for months and at the same
time convincing myself that everything will improve if I just try a
little harder.
Finally, a few weeks
ago, I had a moment of epiphany. I can’t and don’t want to keep
living like this, I have to change something. So now I’m on a new
medication, am going back to therapy and most importantly want to
reconnect with my friends and acquaintances online and offline!
It still took me
quite a bit of time and courage to write all this down, especially
since I don’t want to make it sound like I’m trying to gain
sympathy or pity or even use this story for attention.
I just want to tell
those who care the truth in as few as possible paragraphs. To have
this out of the way, for them and for me.
For a fresh start I turned this to a personal blog and made a blog exclusively for my art, though I will still reblog my pictures here too.
I’ll introduce my new blogs in a separate post but if you already wanna know or follow it, it’s named artist-yutaki
Yes… I think that
is it. I will write some personal messages to try and start talking
and communicating again with everyone I missed (and actually feel
confident enough writing an unprompted message) ❤ If I don’t
write you always feel free to strike up a convo! I either forgot
because I’m very scatter brained on my new meds or chances are even
higher that I was too shy, haha^^”
Every message means
the world to me, but if you don’t feel like writing or even
answering that is totally fine too of course, after all I’ve been
gone for so long!
I’ll start writing
messages and answers tomorrow, this post sadly already took all my
energy and courage to make and post plus it’s already late.
So see you tomorrow!
Love you all! ♡
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